1 year later

Written by Shae on October 4th, 2009

Can you believe it has been a whole year?  A whole year with two crying, pooping, screaming babies.  October 7, 2008 at 7:52 and 7:53 am, Jack and Ella were born.  We have been updating you on their progress for this past year, but we haven’t really updated you on our progress.

One year ago, I was scared shitless.  I had no idea how I was going to raise a baby, let alone two.  Everyone gets all excited when they go in to have their babies.  I was more scared and anxious than excited.  I was trying to get a failing buisness up and running again and the twins seemed to come at the wrong time.  Well, I didn’t have much a choice at that point.  They were coming no matter what.  The night before I went in I was actually able to get some sleep.

After the horrible experience that was my c-section, I was able to meet my Jack and Ella.  They were absolutely perfect.  Cute little feet and hands and noses.  While I was in the hospital, it was kind of like a break for me.  Sure, I couldn’t walk and I was really sick from the drugs, but I was able to just focus on my babies and nothing else.  When I got home it was a whole different story.

We decided to shut down the business since the economy took a nose dive and it gave me a chance to stay home with the babies.  So have I changed?  Hell yeah I have changed.  I have two freaking babies!

It didn’t take long to get into a good routine.  I figured out how to feed them both at the same time and how to change a million diapers during the day.  Things were pretty easy in the beginning since they just laid there and did nothing.  Sure, I had a bunch of break downs in the middle of the night when they wouldn’t stop crying and I was only getting about three hours of sleep a night, but Pat was there to give me lots of hugs and take over the feeding and changings for me.  I was still worried about raising them and if I was going to be a good mommy, but things just seemed to be working out.  Things got a little tougher when they started rolling over.  At this point, I couldn’t just leave them alone to go make bottles or change one.  I actually had to watch over them.  the nice thing was that they were so excited about being able to roll over.  The next BIG challenge came when the became totally mobile and started crawling.  I spent a whole lot more time on the ground chasing them around and playing with them and all that fun stuff.  I think it was at this point that I realized I may actually be doing a pretty good job with them.  They were on track and hitting all their milestones and were actually pretty happy babies!  I had a routine down during the day and I was finally able to get out the door with them in under an hour.  This was huge!

A couple of weeks ago, the twins got a whole lot more mobile.  They are now walking along the couch and coffee table and taking a few steps here and there.  They are also no longer satisfied with sitting in the bouncers or the play pen.  I still have to figure this step out!

I guess this brings you up to present day.  I am still a little freaked out, but I have learned to just go with the flow.  We have good days and bad days.  There are days when I just want to throw in the towel because they spend the day crying and there are days that I don’t want to end because I am having so much fun with them.  My priorities have changed a lot too.  Now, my priority is obviously the twins.  Not that I ever went out much before, but now that sort of thing has been put on the back burner.  I am still not comfortable having a babysitter stay with them unless they are already in bed and asleep.  I have no idea what is in store for us this next year but I am excited about it.  I know it will be hard having to chase around two toddlers all day, but I am looking forward to spending every second I can with them.  I am so happy we had two.  I just can’t imagine what it would be like with just one.  I think things would be pretty boring for them.  With the two of them, they can spend their time playing with each other and keeping each other company.  Yeah, it would be easier to go grocery shopping and to the park and stuff like that, but I wouldn’t change it for anything.  I think my life is pretty darn great right now!

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  1. Lyndee says:

    Oh Shae! I’m in love with this post. I love your honesty, and I love how much emotion poured out of it! The kiddos are so lucky to have such a good and loving Mom. And I also have to say, each and every day gets better and better. It might also get crazier and more hectic, but I could never imagine the silly little things that happen on a daily basis getting better and better, but it does. Just as you think you can’t laugh any harder, you will.
    Congratulations on making it through the first year, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY Jack and Ella!!!

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